2013

Wow.

So it's been 19 months since I last "took stock" and added an entry to my Gym Blog; a blog which I used to use in 2009 as a platform to record my plans and progress.

What's happened since May 2011?

• in June 2011 I broke up with my LDR, in July 2011 I went to Halifax
• I got a new kitten and all hell broke loose
• I moved to a new apartment in October 2011
• still doing my Swing dancing when lessons and workshops are available
• met a bf in April 2012, was together for 5.5 months during which time I spent my weekends with him a lot of the time and the eating went out the window, however I was a nice size when I met him, fresh off a recent 4-week weight-loss effort at Dr.Bernstein
• my relationship with my newest best friend was becoming distant, petty and uncomfortable at the same time as my romantic relationship was becoming intolerable
• then September came--at the end of that crazy month I broke up with the b.f.
• then October came, along with drama from the break up and drama from trying to get my friendship on better ground again, had to involve the police with regards to the b.f. 
• November: Disco month
• December 2012: birthday/Christmas/New Year's and....

....here I am after having gained weight over the summer and fall and now without the Dr.Bernstein program to fall back on since it's not reimbursed by my insurance company at the same rate anymore.

I used New Year's day and the days leading up to it deciding to refocus myself (as I think everyone tends to do) and came down to 5 things I wanted to improve, "figure" and "fitness" being the two that apply to the blogging I do here.

Inspired by my friend at work, I am going to test the merits of the MyFitnessPal website and mobile app which seem to be very similar to FitDay.com (but with an app too).

I've bought a speed rope (skipping rope) for cheap as a means of trying out a new form of cardio.
I've updated my iPod with some fresh beats.

I'm also paying attention to my thought processes.

My first reaction was to stock up on the foods I would have been eating on the Dr.Bernstein diet and attempt to do it at home on my own without the shots. It is so restrictive that I immediately felt a sense of isolation come over me knowing how difficult it is to do. However, one insane day back at work at the start of a new term decimated that plan by about 11am.

I left work yesterday when it was dark and thought to myself, "
 what would motivate me to go to the gym right now after the day I've had, feeling like I do right now?" I could not come up with anything. I just wanted to go home and seek comfort in my pyjamas and that's what I did.

I decided that trying to do such a difficult program just to achieve a short-term loss was not worth it when really what I've wanted to do is get back to the excitement and empowerment I felt when I was weight-training in the summer of 2009.

I called my friend at work and asked if she wanted to have lunch and talk further about how she achieved her improved health and she was happy to tell me all about it. It made me feel good about trying to take the right path and that's what I am here to assert.

2013 needs to be "the year".